I would also like to start with me currently suffering from depression and have done now for a few years. There have been a lot of times where I thought it was hopeless and times where I did not feel things were worth it. My journey aswell as yours has not been easy to this point, I was not one of the fourtunate people to turn to friends and family because for sometime to me everyone in my eyes was lying and had a hidden agenda.

Alot of councillors and doctors resort back to past expirences and say or work out where the problems start. The new bit of information you may or may not of learnt from that is irelevant. This is because your told this but how does that help me in my present state of mind. It felt like every one I saw start with this stratagy of trying to find out where it comes from its fine however I want to know what to do about it. I spent a lot of time doing this and finally said that I am going to have to try and piece this together my self and work out a stratagy. Once again Its a lonely battle and my trust for people became non exsistent.

The one thing that I had control over was one of the things I let go and that was my every day to day life the not caring you go through the wanting to be alone but want people around doing there every day to day activity.

With the trust and thinking that every one was lying made me very sensative and I was begining to pick things up from people even if they did not speack to me or people that i didnt even know. This in its self was terrible and I did not know what to do about it. I remember thinking that the only other explination was the non verbal communication that every one was giving out. Now to understand something you need to know everything about it and how it works. This was a mistake that made me take it to a deeper level and it consumed me with a deep dark sadness and I felt lost.